Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Her Anxiety

Earth in beauty dressed
Awaits returning spring.

All true love must die,
Alter at the best
Into some lesser thing.

Prove that I lie.


Such body lovers have,
Such exacting breath,
That they touch or sigh.

Every touch they give,
Love is nearer death.

Prove that I lie.
- William Butler Yeats, "Her Anxiety"

25 comments:

  1. Yeats could be such a Gloomy Gus –– always daring us to try to challenge and disprove the essential truth of his Tragic View of the Human Condition. I understand him well enough and sympathize to a certain extent, –– I even love him, –– but have found –– in the lifelong attempt to preserve my own sanity –– that oftentimes a more WHIMSICAL approach to the most deadly serious considerations gives a lift to the spirit, and helps greatly in resisting –– and eventually transcending –– forces eagerly waiting always to drag us into the Slough of Despond.


    _____ TOO SOON OLD & TOO LATE SMART _____



    Before committing Marriage Gay People should take pause
    
And consider the implications of Community Property Laws.



    Lust may achieve satiety
    
With or without propriety,
    
So why become a martyr
    
To receive the imprimatur
    
Of a dull Bourgeois society

    
Whose strictures you flee gleefully
    ?

Intimate relationships of each and every kind
    
Are blithely entered into by mad persons love made blind.

    The stress and strain of living close together every day
    
Demands incessant giving causing tempers soon to fray.


    The quest to reach Equality considers not, of course,

    The Agony –– and vast Expense –– that comes with a Divorce!



    ~ FreeThinke

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  2. An early "love Poem" from my far less sanguine youth:


    I thought that I had grown too wise to let
    Myself be tripped and thrown against the Spike
    That tears a passage for the sharp Regret
    Of ever having started just to like

    You through all my hard-won toughened skin ––
    To reach a tender region I had smothered
    In hopes of killing all the hurt within.
    To know you taught me I should not have bothered.

    There never has been refuge from Reality
    Or sure escape from Phantoms in the Mind,
    And you, Sweet Advocate of Immorality,
    Are everywhere, are all that I can find.

    O, Christ, why does it always come to this:
    That Life, itself, means less than one kind kiss?



    ~ FreeThinke - fifty-plus years ago

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  3. BACK to IRONY EXPRESSED with WRY GOOD HUMOR - THIS TIME by MAXINE KUMIN:


    _____________ Purgatory _____________


    And suppose the darlings get to Mantua,
    suppose they cheat the crypt, what next? Begin
    with him, unshaven. Though not, I grant you, a
    displeasing cockerel, there's egg yolk on his chin.
    His seedy robe's aflap, he's got the rheum.
    Poor dear, the cooking lard has smoked her eye.
    Another Montague is in the womb
    although the first babe's bottom's not yet dry.
    She scrolls a weekly letter to her Nurse
    who dares to send a smock through Balthasar,
    and once a month, his father posts a purse.
    News from Verona? Always news of war.
    ____ Such sour years it takes to right this wrong!
    ____ The fifth act runs unconscionably long.
     

    ~ Maxine Kumin

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  4. CONTINUING in the SAME WRYLY HUMOROUS VEIN:


    ________ To a Daughter Smitten ________


    Desist, my darling dimwit; do not wed
    On impulse born of weather fair this June.
    No one should be by sun and roses led.
    Only till you’ve weathered a typhoon,
    Tornado, or at least a spate of sleet,
    Will your prospective mate reveal his soul.
    Easy times glide by, deny, delete
    Demands that demonstrate a nature whole.
    Intoxicated by the scents of spring
    No common sense could nonsense overwhelm.
    Joy seems imminent, yet blistering
    Unhappiness might well be at the helm.
    None a nun would have you be, and yet
    Eden is not ours to gain, my pet.



    ~ FreeThinke, The Sandpiper - Summer '95

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  5. Sorry that I haven't been able to respond. I'm up to my eyeballs in alligators at the moment. :(

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  6. Not to worry, FJ, only please do everything possible to avoid getting bitten, okay? At 22,000 lbs of pressure per square inch an alligator bite is no trifling matter. We would't want to lose you.

    Meanwhile, here is one of Emily Dickinson's many contributions to the expression of anxiety, consternation, and sober flights of fancy concerning romantic love:

    I live with Him — I see His face —
    I go no more away
    For Visitor — or Sundown —
    Death's single privacy

    The Only One — forestalling Mine—
    And that — by Right that He
    Presents a Claim no wedlock —
    Has ever granted Me —

    I live with Him — I hear His Voice —
    I stand alive — Today —
    To witness to the Certainty
    Of Immortality —

    Taught Me — by Time — the lower Way —
    Conviction — Every day —
    That Life like This — is endless —
    Be Judgment — what it may —


    ~ Emily Dickinson (1830-1886)

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  7. __________ BANQUET __________


    Generously spread with gracious living
    The table beckons. Lace and candlelight
    Mingle with fine chine. I am diving
    Into the tureen, which is a sight

    All white and warm while guarding snowy chowder.
    Savory is a casserole of brains.
    Sparkling wine has made our talk much louder ––
    Louder than the voices of our pains.

    Drink has numbed our virtues and our faults
    While food has warmed our anxious, craving hearts.
    Later, we will step into a waltz ––
    Whose cycle whirls till every fear departs

    Leaving us quite buoyant –– out of breath ––
    Saddened that this night must suffer death.


    ~ FreeThinke - New York 1963

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  8. FURTHER EVIDENCE that OLD AGE is FAR MORE JOYFUL than CALLOW YOUTH:


    Silently they lie like icebergs
    _____ in a black and frozen sea.
    Moving endlessly to nowhere
    _____ on waves of turmoil
    __________ they occasionally touch ––

    Only to crash together in rumbling torment
    _____ a parody of intimacy ––
    __________ to split, shatter and destroy.

    And when on rare, divine days
    _____ a ray of warmth
    __________ penetrates the chill damp
    They melt –– grateful –– yielding –– unafraid

    Only to slip back into the prison
    _____ of the black and frozen sea ––

    Formless –– and without identity.


    ~ FreeThinke - New York 1962

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  9. So you think YOU've got problems with YOUR love life. Well, get a load of THIS:

    I met this girl
    and she’s just great
    the problem is that I am straight
    you ask
    how can this be?
    listen and you will see

    she’s got that style
    she’s got that smile
    she’s got the walk
    she’s got the talk
    she’s got that zing
    there’s just one thing
    she’s got a penis
    she’s got that flare
    knows what to wair
    she’s got that face
    that girl is grace
    she’s got pizazz
    too bad she has a penis

    she’s got a penis
    now nobody’s perfect
    i must admit
    say how many will the pieces fit
    she’s got more going
    than most of the dolls
    whoops i forgot about her balls

    but she’s so hip
    this babe’s a trip
    she’s dissed and gay
    she’s got kashe
    she’s quite a dame
    ain't it a shame
    a crime that’s hanus
    those lips, those eyes
    then big surprise
    that penis

    theres always some failure
    always some flaw
    isn’t that what they call Murphy’s law?
    but male genitalia
    thats where I draw the line
    (besides hers is bigger than mine!)

    she’s got class
    she’s got that sass
    she’s got that sheek
    she’s got misteek
    she’s cool she’s hot
    she’s got a lot
    except a mount of venus
    it’s a tragedy
    ‘cause where that should be
    she’s got a penis

    my life’s a mess
    cause under that dress
    she’s got a p-e-n-i-s
    YES!


    ~ Ray Jessel

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  10. ______________ NOBILITY ______________


    Keep my confidence, please, if I disclose
    A hint too bold of what the decades lent
    To my distinctly odd development,
    Husbanding, as I do, some wondrous woes.

    Yes, happiest am I when trouble grows ––
    Sporting a satanic element ––
    A challenge made to foment discontent.
    No seeds of joy thrive neatly sown in rows.

    Deviltry excels in bringing out
    Exultation in a higher way ––
    Rebuttal to the prickly taunts of doubt.

    Splendid vision neutralizes pain,
    Overcoming dread, until the day
    Nobility says, “You can’t see her again.”


    ~ FreeThinke

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  11. You shouldn't kiss and tell FT! For shame! ;)

    -ps - Thanks for the morning brighteners.

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  12. IT'S FATHER'S DAY. SOMEONE SHOULD TAKE NOTE OF IT.

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  13. __________ A Father’s Prayer __________


    Ask not, my child, what I can do for you.
    Forgive what seems like stinginess today.
    A lot will be required to go through
    The process of discovering the right way.

    Help yourself. Don't wait for me, my child.
    Each one of us must learn to stand alone.
    Rich rewards like Love can't be beguiled,
    Seduced or bought. They must in toil be grown.

    Perhaps to you I sound a bit too stern?
    Remember that I've lived a longer time.
    A joy cannot exist until you earn
    Your way. To do it FOR you'd be a crime.

    Exacting though I seem, my little one,
    Respect me now, and –– later –– you'll have fun.


    ~ FreeThinke - The Sandpiper

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  14. Happy Fathers DAY to your loved ones hon!! xoxox:)


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  15. FJ,
    FYI...

    FT's computer has died with regard to accessing the web. He is in the process of getting a new machine and will return to the blogs when the new machine is up and running.

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  16. Thank you for the information AoW. I'm glad he's getting back up. He'll be missed. :)

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  17. FJ,
    FT's techie skills are minimal. He has a dread of computers. But he now realizes that he has no way to baby along the machine he was using for the past several years.

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  18. They're relatively cheap, but still easily "infected". I hope his new computer serves him well.

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  19. FJ,
    FT likes Mac computers. They're not as cheap as pc's.

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  20. A Mac mini would be cheap... if he already has a monitor/keyboard/mouse, etc.

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